I feel like a grey, blobby monster without any sleep.

Even when I'm dead, I'll swim through the Earth, like a mermaid of the soil, just to be next to your bones.

I love my new Vivitar cam:) Definetly taking this baby to Wet n Wild next week.

Disasterology.

The Badger is the thirteenth astrological sign.
My sign. The one the other signs evicted: unanimously.

So what? ! Think I want to read about my future
in the newspaper next to the comics?

My third grade teacher told me I had no future.
I run through snow and turn around
just to make sure I've got a past.

My life's a chandelier dropped from an airplane.
I graduated first in my class from alibi school.

There ought to be a healthy family cage at the zoo,
or an open field, where I can lose my mother
as many times as I need.

When I get bored, I call the cops, tell them
there's a pervert peeking in my window!
then I slip on a flimsy nightgown, go outside,
press my face against the glass and wait...

This makes me proud to be an American

where drunk drivers ought to wear necklaces
made from the spines of children they've run over.

I remember my face being invented
through a windshield.

All the wounds stitched with horsehair
So the scars galloped across my forehead.

I remember the hymns cherubs sang
in my bloodstream. The way even my shadow ached
when the chubby infants stopped.

I remember wishing I could be boiled like water
and made pure again. Desire
so real it could be outlined in chalk.

My eyes were the color of palm trees
in a hurricane. I'd wake up
and my id would start the day without me.

Somewhere a junkie fixes the hole in his arm
and a racing car zips around my halo.

A good God is hard to find.

Each morning I look in the mirror
and say promise me something
don't do the things I've done.

Jeffrey McDaniel

Inventions.

Pretty happy with my bear purse. It literally took mum & I 4 hourz and we almost broke the sewing machine. Worth it though! I can't to make more=)

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I hope you can hear the echo of my heart breaking 4511 miles away.

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I got my 3rd kisser ever last night.





How do I feel about it? Uncertain.

I'll be your screetch and crash, if you be my crutch and cast<'3

1. Little brother, Austin.
2. Baby crab!
3. Turtle that I didn't run over! (It peed on Austin, haha)
4. Tube top that mum & I made on Arts & Crafts day:)!

Lately.

Hi, my name is Rossitza Kostova. I like Rossi better. It really actually would be Rosi 'cause in Bulgarian it's only four letters, but I go by what my passport tells me. I don't like to talk about myself, but this is practice for the real world. Most likely, only people I know will read this, so hey guyz;)! This is so true to me: "When you put your life in danger, you start living. The rest.. is television." I love unnesessary cuteness. Recently started liking pink + dresses + dancing. The keyboard would be better as a typewriter. Apparently, many people enjoy my company. Today someone told me it was because I am the happiest person they've known. True. I am. I've only kissed two people in my life. Kiss = tounge2. I like it that way. I like being alone. I do love cuddling & spooning. I miss cuddling & spooning. I can't lie. It's weird. Xeroxing an image over and over until you can't recognize it anymore makes perfect sense to me. So does repeating a word over and over until it doesn't sound the same anymore and has lost its meaning. I can admit that I am wrong. I hate the fact that I'm forgetting Bulgarian, when in acuality Bulgaria is everything to me. Sometimes I think it would've been better there. Maybe I just know too little. I'm young. I have dark circles under my eyes because of a ski trip gone bad. Not because of 0 sleep, though I have that problem too. I like friends, but don't really have close ones. I wish that would change. I can't really write, ENC1102 was the worst. Not much better in math either. I like History. Physical aspects: dirty blonde, gray eyes, big hips, somewhat "perfect" in weight, 5'5 and a half. I'm short compared to my dad who is 6'4. Poo. I wish I had talents, but I feel like I'm not great at anything, just good at everything. It's rediculous how many photos I have to put up on this. I hate the computer. It scares me that I can now type without looking at the key buttons. I don't like it one bit. Umm.. to be continued?

iend & the cloud that looks like Bulgaria

I will miss seeing you.

baby Ducky

I wish uploading wasn't such a hassle. I am happy a Johnny Cupcakes shirt is on its way to me:) These were mostly when I took Sonia to see Maggie in Kissimme. Grannys birthday was last week also. She is now 79 & happier then ever. I wuv her.

I've never told a lie.

The Eye Doctor. Muahaha.

I left work early because I wanted to throw up. There were wayy too many people there. It's always like that when you want to leave/don't feel good/have other stuff to do.
I went to the eye doctor Friday & everyone knows how squeemish I am about eyes. Ewww. I could be a mortician, but eyes are just gross! Anyway, my eyes were dialated for a couple of hours.

It was really hard to drive around with the sun killing my eyes. I was crying the entire way home, hah.
Then right after I get a call saying I can't go to school on Monday because I don't have the right immunization records. Awesome. So, being all blind, my mom drives me to Orange City & there they tell me I'm actually missing shots. So, yay .. two more shots. The nurse stabs the needle right in my tumor, which still hurts & I feel awesome after that. Haha. Not really >:(
That night was also Spring Formal @ Atc. So lame. I'm just happy I saw everyone all cute & dressed up. Sonia came! Woo! There must've been like 60ish people there? Haha. Fun right? I looked cute & it gave me a reason to wear my Saks dress again:D


Eww:

Dialated:

The Dentist.

The photo I promised yesterday::

< --I now have bangs. They look horrible. Get more nerdy by the day. I love Sonias cute ways, aha. ^^ Miss that hair right now.

Photo of the day --->

Hah, the dentists lovee me.

I went by Galato Italiano today where I used to work at forever ago. It ran out of buisness :( I figured from the start it wouldn't work cuz it was too good to be true. The place was run by people that were too nice. I used to steal spoonfuls of imported ice cream. Mmm.. good.

So, I figured I should make a blog and not tell anyone about it. I can't keep up with my journal anymore and this is easier. I can also add photos:)

I skipped work for the first time today. Weird. It felt like time travel or something. All the things I did instead of being stuck @ Circuit. We all went to the beach! (pics soon) I'm getting $$ for a Macbook Pro which will be a pretty big upgrade.

Pretty hyped about that. Hopefully I'll keep up w/ this.